Falling into Self

The nature of mind is that it is programmed to seek. It's always looking for something, or moving away from something. It exists in the arena of objects, of things, and is in constant motion. Mind and motion are the same. Constant motion, constant change. Change is mind, motion is mind, seeking is mind. The mind is the creator of the experience of doing, and effort is involved in doing. The effort is always trying to change something, move away from something, move towards something, get something. But the nature of being, consciousness, and heart, is that there is no doing, there is no seeking; it just rests in its own nature, in itself. The seeking mind attempts to seek and find the peace that is inherent in consciousness, but the only thing it can find are objects. The mind is constant change, while the nature of being is changeless. Mind is in constant motion, while being is motionless.

So the conditioned approach of mind in the spiritual arena is that it is seeking the Self the only way it knows how, and that is by seeking objects. It tries to create an object out of the Self as a state that the mind is seeking. But as long as there is seeking, attention has been siphoned away into the mind arena. It is the story of who I am, as opposed to the realization of who I am. The story of who I am is the body always seeking to change other objects that appear, in order to attain the fundamental object, the Self, that the mind creates. However, Self is not an object and cannot be found. When the mind stops seeking, the nature of being, the nature of Self, becomes self- evident, because the attention has not been pulled away. All the seeking the mind does cannot enable it to achieve what it is seeking because it only knows objects. To the mind, the Self is a mystery. It tries to create an object out of it, but it is a mystery. There's no intercepting point where the mind can touch the Self. The mind is an imaginary creation that creates the appearance of these objects and then is constantly seeking, or attempting to get away from, these objects that it creates. But what is object-less is the space in which all of this appears. It cannot be sought, it cannot be found, it is not an object. But when seeking and finding are finished, then the attention is not swept into this arena, and you just feel your Self. It's so simple. You just feel your Self. You feel the silence that is always here. The mind cannot find the silence, the silence is felt when one stops following the mind. The mind does not have to be stopped, just the following of the mind stops. You feel silence, and let go of the habit that brings on the stress, and the repetitive belief, of somehow falling short because the mind cannot find the Self. The mind is just a program. A seeking program. Seeking objects. There's not anything wrong with it, it's how it's programmed.

The true beauty of your heart is felt and it's everywhere, infinite, luminous. It is the only thing that is not an object away from you, but is felt as you. It is always alive. There is always silence. You always exist. The feeling of existence and the feeling of silence are the same.

The mind/body is the perceiver, and the objects that it perceives all appear within the infinite, vast space of silence. The earth appears within the infinite space of silence. The whole universe appears in the infinite space of silence, and the feeling of silence is the feeling of your Self. It is out of the Self that everything arises. None of it is separate from the Self, but in the feeling of the Self there is no feeling of objects because the mind is not active. The mind is the creator and the seeker of objects while the silence of being has no desire. It's not seeking. It's not moving. It's not changing. It's simply the feeling of deep peace and wholeness that is everywhere. The silence does not intersect with the mind/body phenomena; the mind/body phenomena is the stimulus that distracts attention. When the attention is not distracted into the arena of phenomenal experience, then you simply feel what is always here. It is not moving, it's here. It is not changing, but changeless. It does not appear in time, it is timeless. The attention can be swept away and experience a time of distraction, but the feeling of your existence, remains. It's timeless. It's always here.

The more one lets go of the distractive habits, the more deeply the relationship becomes the silence of Beingness, of presence. When the silence is being felt it is not felt by the mind/body organism; the mind/body organism can only perceive objects - it's all it can do. When the silence is felt, what is eventually recognized is it is the silence of your being feeling its nature, remembering its nature. This deepens the relationship with itself. Consciousness becomes more conscious of itself. Eventually the silence that was living in the background and the relationship with objects in the foreground is inverted; feeling of silence is felt as the foreground and the appearance of objects in the background. When this shift happens, the experience of doing falls away. When the relationship with silence, with presence, with the beauty of your being, is being tasted in the foreground, this is the end of experiencing life through a point of reference. This is the taste of the unchanging beauty that is alive and can be felt; it is not a doing, not a getting, not a movement away-from. It's not a movement. That's why the mind cannot find it. The mind can only find objects that are moving. But the mind and the body appear within the changeless feeling of the silence that is the nature of what you are.

It is about feeling what you are, not seeking or finding. Simply let go of the habits of distraction; remain still and feel into the love that is your nature. Feel the infinite unified field of conscious awareness, then the field itself begins to open new channels of communication with itself, becomes more sensitive and refined, more alive. Then the sense of joy grows and the reflective play that appears within it reflects the harmony, the light, and the beauty instead of reflecting karma. This is how it all works. All appears within the infinite space of infinite intelligence and only reflects the state of consciousness, thus what is happening in the play is really under the direction of consciousness. The perceiver and the perceived, from where do they come? You look to see from where do they come and you find consciousness, Beingness, the heart. The conditioned habit follows what is being perceived and the perceiver, but this all arises out of consciousness. It appears in consciousness as a reflection of the state of the collective field of conscious awareness.

When everybody is lost in ego/mind phenomena, the disharmony will be reflected in what's going on in the world. When you are connected with your Self, the whole field becomes illuminated and alive. The wisdom becomes more wise. The beauty becomes more palpable. The reflection reflects more beauty and aliveness, and it is all simply about letting go of the distractive habits, not seeking and finding enlightenment. It is not about seeking, the mind is the seeker. It is not about acquiring, the mind is the acquirer. It is not about the future, the future is just created in the mind's story. It's about right now. It's about the feeling of your Self - right now. Feel what is non-local, right now. Feel the flavor of your existence, which is everywhere and always this moment, always now.  Recognise what already is, as opposed to acquiring an object created by the mind called enlightenment, which is just a concept. 

The truth is that you are already freedom itself. The program is a seeking machine that cannot understand this. It does the only thing it can do, seek objects, and it has created an object out of what is called enlightenment, something that somebody can "get”, something that some people have and some people don't have. The nature of reality is wakeful consciousness. Pure peace. Unalloyed joy. It is what is. The addictive habit is in the realm of experience of objects that are being sought or attempted to be changed, manipulated. But this does not matter, it's just taking care of itself. The dream reflects harmony when you are tasting the harmony that is your nature in this moment. In this moment. It is the only time that you exist. You can only exist now. The feeling of your existence is the realization of your freedom. It's that simple. The feeling of your heart is the pure love that is your nature, right now. As the taste deepens, the flavor of it becomes bigger and brighter. You can feel that eventually the unified space of conscious awareness is vaster than everything and anything, and it's degree of aliveness is constantly growing as the habit of distraction begins to lose its grip. Just go within and feel your heart. Feel your center. Feel your presence. Feel your aliveness. There is nothing more to it.

Devaji, September 2020